Beautiful, that's how Jesus saw me

Beautiful that's how Jesus saw me
Though I was broken and so lost
Jesus look past all my faults
Justice and law saw what I have done
But mercy saw me through the Son

Not what i was, but what i could be
That's how Jesus saw me

Today my church had an Easter performance. Depicting the story of Jesus, and His love for man-kind. As usual Easter is about the story Jesus' death. Many of my friend couldn't make it to this performance, but i do hope that they can make it to the next one.

I still remember back in 1999, around 6 yrs ago, i came to know Jesus as my Lord & Saviour through such similar performance.
(Ha ha ha... Michael so stupid !!! kena trick to become a christian.. 'da ben dan !!!')

Well maybe i should have began the story like this;
Still remember 6 yrs ago, I was on the verge of comtemplating suicide.
Yes you read it right. I actually wanted to end my life.
I know many of you can't believe Michael would do such a thing right?
Well everyone has a past....
6 yrs ago was a time when I lost all hope of life, see no meaning of my existence on this earth.
A time where there is little friends for support. Just simply felt hopeless.

During my Sec 4 & Poly Yr 1 days, after I completed my 'O' Levels, i was in the mist of waiting to enter Poly.
Out of a sudden I was just pondering the meaning of life. What am I here on earth for?
After achieving my 'O' Levels, I sort of felt that I just gained another worthless paper. What am I really fighting for. Am I going to go through another 3 yrs for a worthless diploma.
What for?

Since ultimately I am going to die, why do I have to "fight" so hard in life?
Time & time again, i had always wanted to die. Yet the fear of death pulled me back. (i thank God for this)

One day a friend of mine invited me to his church, (which is currently my church) to watch a performance. You may think why i so stupidly agreed right? Well I was from a Anglican school, and i have often heard of chaplins sharing story from the bible. And I simply loves bible stories, as many life's lessons can be learnt. So i just agreed to go.

Little did I know that I was asked to watch a performance, about the life of people, and how Jesus loved them so much. Literally, I saw my life being displayed on stage. And when i saw how Jesus died to give them a hope for living, I started to ponder is this Jesus for real? Isn't He just another good man in history. (Take for example, Lee Kuan Yew.)

The very next moment tears began to roll down my eyes, and I couldn't stop crying. First time in my life, I could not control my tears. (I am a man you know, man drop blood, cannot drop tears!!!)
To be frank that's was the first time, I actually cried happy tears. Tears of joy just flowed non-stop.
I have found hope, I found love, a reason to live on. Someone on earth actually cared so much about me to die for me, to save me from my sins. And His loves for me is so real that I simply just cannot describe. No words have ever been invented to describe Jesus' loves for me & all of you.
And yes !!! Jesus Loves You......

Who am I to haved Him to die for me?
Yet Jesus saw me beautiful.....

I know many of you will question?
Is this Jesus for real?
You can't see Him, how do you know that Jesus ever existed?

Well instead of me answers your questions? Why not I let you ponder the answer for yourself?
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There was once a man who was blind from birth.
Someone asked him.
"Sir, do you think that the SUN exist?"
What do you think, the blind man's answers would be?

The sun exist no matter the blind man can see it or not.
Likewise, though we cannot see God, does that prove that God doesn't exist?

Even the famous Little Prince author once wrote;
Antoine De Saint-Exupery
It is only with the heart that one can see rightly;
what is essential is invisible to the eye.

Things of the unseen can be more real than those that can be seen.
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Can science really answers everything?
Do you know many of the famous sciencetists are actually christians, and many of them had actually did one experience that had always failed.
And that is to prove that God never existed.