Old Story, New Revelation

There was a man by the name of Michael. He has just bought himself a posh Porsche. On one particular day, He was driving it round the neighbourhood, as he approached a turn into the ally, a huge brick was thrown to the side of his car door. He jammed the breaks and immediately got down his car to check the severity of the damage. Indeed the brick has caused a deep dent on the door.

Michael look around and realise that it was a little boy (probably around the age of 5), who threw the brick. Fumingly mad, Michael walked over grab that kid by the collar and pulled him to his car. Without reasoning Michael shouted; “Did you realised what you have just done ! This is a new expensive car. Do you know how much your parents' going to pay for such a damage.” When Michael has finish his statement, he realise there were tears rolling down the sides of the boy's eyes. Michael loosen his grip, and asked; “Why are you crying?” The young boy replied; “I'm sorry sir. I really didn't meant to throw that brick. My elder brother has just fallen off the wheel chair, and I am not able to lift him back. I tired to get attention, but there was no car willing to stop.”
Upon hearing the boy's reply, Michael's heart was soften, he walked over to the boy's brother and help him back to his wheel chair. Both the boy and his brother gave thanks and left Michael's presence with much gratitude.

Michael walked back to his car pondering what had just happen. He never got that Porsche repaired. That dent serves as a reminder for him not to cruise through life so fast and not realising there may be others around him needing help.

This is the story shared by Pastor KeetKeong in today's sermon over Trinity@PayaLeba. I have read this story before, and frankly speaking from the start of the story I had already knew the ending. Not until I realised it at the end of the service that Father is speaking to me.

Before I continue, I just want to share what happened to me the day before Fri 08-May-09. On Friday night I was spending time with Father. I poured several of my issues to Him, likewise Father also showed me one vision/promised He has for me. As usual I doubted. Father began to speak to me, encouraging me to go up to the altar the following Saturday service to receive ministry. Why do I say Father encourage me? Tell you the truth I kind of dislikes going up to the altar, not that I have any negative feelings about people going up to the altar. I simply just don't like it. I would prefer to just stay at my seat to worship & enjoy the Father's love. On Friday night I told Father if He want me to go up to the altar than He must remind me, because I have short term memory.

On Saturday service, when the sermon is about to end. Lo and behold Father suddenly reminded me to go to the altar. I hesitated, but I still “forced” myself to walk up to the altar. It was at the altar that I was reminded of the above story. I am the car. I have asked Father almost every night to heal me from the hurt I have received from my previous relationship. Yes thank God, I must admit that my heart is not as painful as it was few months back, but the scar is still there. All along I presumed that the scar was a source of perpetual pain I have to endure and plead for God to rain down and wash it away.

At the altar I reflected the above story.
Is Father never going to remove this scar?
Is this scar going to serve as a purpose to encourage others with similar plight?
Is this scar going to serve as a reminder for me to handle my next relationship carefully?
(provided Father bring me into one.)
I don't know.Or rather, I am sill waiting for an answer.

I reminded of the below song, that Father used it so lovingly to soothe the pain in me a few months back.

it's gonna be all right child
even through the darkest night child
I'll even use your darkness to teach you how to hear me
it's gonna be alright now
even if you don't seem how
I'll even use your failures to help you to draw near me

just hear me I am calling
child come falling
deeper in love with me
trust me you must let go
or you will never know
any deeper love in me

it's gonna alright here
if you will let me hold your heart near
I'll even use your sorrow to teach you how to love me
it's gonna be alright child
I'll hold you really close & tight child
I'll even use your wounding to help know more of me

so hear me I am calling
child come falling
deeper in love with me
trust me you must let go
or you will never know
any deeper love in me

why do you hold on to the things of your past
let go & cling to me a love that will last
how can you know me if you do not trust my love
let go your fight my love is more than enough

so hear me I am calling
child come falling
deeper in love with me
trust me you must let go
or you will never know
any deeper love in me
letting go will set you free

it's gonna be alright now
even if you don't seem how
I'll even use your failures to help you to draw near me