Such an irony

This morning on the way to school I received a sms saying that a friend of mine, her grandma has just past away. I felt a little sad about this and I was greatly disturbed. I was disturbed not only because of this, but what happen in the morning when I woke up. And it is rather ironic.

I have a habit every morning and that is to 'lai chuang'. Yes though I am wide a wake, I just can't help it to just laze a bit more in bed, before I am willing to get up. While I was lying on my bed, half asleep & half awake. I suddenly was reminded of my own grandmother. I felt really bad as I have not visited her for the past one month already (ever since CNY). Simply because I was working & busy preparing for my exams.
Yah I know this is no excuse at all. I am scolding myself for this.

My grandma now stays in a nursing home, 90% of the time she is bed-ridden. Actually all of us in the family have already prepared ourselves that at any moment she is going to leave us.
This morning on the bed, I was just thinking about my grandma. I know this is bad, I must confess that I sort of hope that my grandma will leave us soon. Looking at how her every movement requires the help of others. If I were her I would felt so useless.
After a while I shook myself back to reality. Life is so precious, it must be treasured.
Why oh why do I have such evil thoughts?

My grandma is not a Christian, but once in a while I am praying for her salvation and also for God to strengthen her & grant her good health. I really have to trust in God for this miracle of salvation. Simply because I don't know how to share with her. My grandma is a little deaf, and my hokkien is not that fluent.
I have heard of testimonies saying that some old-folks whom their children face difficulties in sharing the gospel. Jesus appeared to these old-folks in dreams & vision, and spoke to them in perfect cantonese & hokkien. I am praying that a miracle of this would happen to my grandma.

Well as I got up from my bed, I asked my mother if she is going to pay grandma a visit this sat. She said yes, and I immediately told her to remind me to go with her.Now you all know why I felt so irony.

When I got the news that my friend's grandma past away. I was shocked! This morning I was just reminded of my own grandma, and now my friend's grandma.

Can things be of so coincidence?
God are you trying to tell me something?

On the bus, I began to say a little prayer for my friend & her family. I really do pray that in the mist of this lost; the Father's love will be upon my friend and her family. I pray for the peace of the Father to surround each and everyone of them. I pray that Father will allow them to see hope in the mist of this situation.I really don't know what to pray, but God please help them.

When I reach the library, I also prayed a prayer for my grandma, whom I will pay a visit this sat. As I was reading my bible, Father spoke to me once again in 1John 5.

1John 5:4-5
For everyone born of God overcomes the world. This is the victory that has overcome the world, even our faith. Who is it that overcomes the world? Only he who believes that Jesus is the Son of God.

I really do thank God that I am an over-comer in this world, simply by having faith in Jesus. Jesus is indeed my victory. And I believe I will see my grandma in heaven. I don't know how it would take place, but I believe God will make a way, where there seems to be no way.

1John 5:11-12
And this is the testimony: God has given us eternal life, and this life is in his Son. He who has the Son has life; he who does not have the Son of God does not have life.

I really thank you Father from the bottom of my heart for giving me eternal life.
What have I done to deserve all these?
Nothing..... who am I to deserve your love for me.

Yet you have freely given your love & your life to me.

Thank you Father for everything in my life.