Grandma

On my journey back after cell, bus 8 pass by the same usual route. Normally I would just sleep through the whole journey, but today I was awake through out. The bus pass by my aunty's place, the place where my grandma held her wake a few months back.

God told me to let go, rest & don't look back. Well today I couldn't help but reminisce on the past. Thinking of how I would normally visit her after work, buying her food, cleaning her dentures, wipe her face, massage her etc. Tears started forming, yes to a certain extend I miss her. What adds to this was she left us at the time when I was in deep valley of hurt. At that point in time, I just felt issues after issues just kept weighing me down.
I heard the Father's voice trying to assure me that she is with Him right now. Believe it or not my natural reaction just now was; "God pls don't lie to me." Father just kept assuring me.

In cell we shared about what we want to achieve in 2009. I shared that I just want to live a normal life. Probably not many understand that I just went into the pit, and still in the process of climbing up. That's why I just want a normal life. No ups no down, is fine with me. I just want a stable life, boring as it may be at least I know there will not be hurt. What's a normal life, I once told a friend, a normal life eg: work, earn money, eat, sleep, shopping, travel, get married, take care of my wife, love her, have kids, sunday go for service, wash toilet, cook, teach my children in the way they should go etc etc. That's all.