男人不坏, 女人不爱

I have learned something cruel today. That is Never to treat a girl too good. No point sacrificing too much. The saying is really true ""男人不坏, 女人不爱"". A righteous man is not an attractive man. Although Pastor Jeff wants us to differ from this statement, how can this truth be denied in a humanly way? You know until now I still blame myself for what has become of her? Last sun I just had this prompting that she is overseas. I have not message her for a long. I just suddenly felt the need to at least show some concerns, but she told me she wasn't which I believe her.

All these while I have been on a daily basis, sending her links to new jobs openings. (as way before we separate , she had mentioned that she is tired of her current job and wants a change. she is rather slothful in looking for job, so i decided to "help" her in ways i can). I was so busy that I did not check my mail for the whole day. (Thank God for preventing this, if not I don't know what my mood will be then.) Today is another busy day for me, so I resolute to stay back to clear off my 50++ unread mails. So happens I drop to a bounce back of her mail, saying that she will be away for a week. Now it half confirm that something is not "right", I message & called her (at that instant i don't know why i did that?). Yes, she is indeed overseas right now with that idiot. At that instant, I have completely no mood for work any more, that's why I am releasing myself here.

As I'm writing, I am reflecting back what happens minutes ago (as well as the bits & pieces of what led to this). I can't believe it, she is willing to go overseas with that idiot. Last time, I gave up church, cell and even friends becasue of her. You know all these were very important to me. For her sake I gave it up, though at times I did blame her for that. I thought that idiot will do the same thing for her too since idiot 'loved' her. Well looks like idiot didn't, if not she wouldn't be overseas with idiot right now. As much as I HATE to say this; "why sacrifice?" When to a girl she thinks this is the rightful thing to do. She can follow that idiot overseas? When last time I was 'forced' to make a decision to either join her cell or leave. (especially when it was during my exams period). Stupidly I chose to leave. In the mist of this pain, God showed me something, that is to completely give up on her, (though at times He reminded me to keep her in prayer). Why of all times do I have such a prompting that she is overseas last sun? If this is not God, than who?

That's why I say, never be too nice to a woman.
Woman are such a being that, even woman can't understand woman.
Haha. You know in the worst case, even woman can't understand herself.

Sorry, this is just my personal experience & comments.
Do feel free to prove me wrong !